As proved to me, Ginny Hunt is an awesome Tarot reader. Or, at least, she was awesome doing my reading. It confirmed many things that I was feeling yet unwilling or unable to articulate fully (my husband just looked at me when I told him I had paid money to her to tell me what I already knew – that’s what the Tarot does. Dear Husband just doesn’t “get it” but supports my rather benign addiction.). I also came to an important distinction about myself.
I hate school.
I utterly, completely, totally, fully, HATE school. If I can improve on my art in any other way – including possibly swimming naked in a pool of very hungry pariahs while on the rag – I very well will do so. I have a complete and utter hatred of school.
I’ve been pondering since that realization why. I love to learn. I’m an avid reader. I study on things I don’t know and am very much that people should improve themselves in both knowledge and reactions. I’m fine with authority – I work several jobs where I have both heavy responsibility and a manager/supervisor to answer to. Hell, I usually vote Democrat – and for the most part they are all *about* authority. So that’s not it.
I think it comes down to my valuing – and therefore hating to waste – my time. Learning random stuff – as long as it is in some way, shape, or form pertinent to what I am doing, I can tolerate. Being told by some random Art Teacher fuck that I have to take intro classes is fine – however, being told that I have to take them THERE at HIS institution (especially when some of these classes are meaningless or redundant with what I already have taught myself) because only there will I get a WONDERFUL education because they are the BEST is lying.
Maybe I also have a problem with the outright falsehood of the higher education system I looked into. It wasn’t an art institute, it doesn’t even have the best program in the STATE – it was just closest, and so for a variety of reasons in my life I was planning on continuing there. I just can’t swallow the loads of bullshit that go with it.
King of Swords.
Yeah, that’s me – trying to make a heart-filled decision with logic, planning… and one just can’t do that. I showed up as it in my reading, I am trying to plan my life as him as well.
I hate school. I hate that Emperor card telling me “because I said so” – I don’t desire that path. Hell, I’ve lived MOST of my life because someone else said so. I’m now to the point in my 30’s that I am just not doing that. Take me as I am.
And the Tarot reflected that. Awesome reading.